Thursday, December 30, 2010

Year 2011 Overview

Just when you thought that life couldn't possibly throw any more twists or turns along life's once tedious path, along comes the unpredictable but exhilarating energy of 2011 (operative word being 'exhilarating'). Partnerships continue to confront you with your deepest needs and fears but your career shows incredible promise and renewal. You receive the lucky touch of Jupiter from January to June. Expect major expansion and recognition on all fronts.
Promotions, opportunities to expand your social world and work-related travel are all potential gifts when the wheel of fortune spins in your favor for the first half of the year. The second half of 2011 brings a spectacular slew of new friends, alliances and networking opportunities when Jupiter moves into your house of dreams, goals and community. Venus showers you with extra doses of love and cash for the month of July, just in time for your birthday. And Mars brings the action, energy and work in August and early September.
Get ready to jet set this spring and/or summer when the planet of glamour enters your long-distance travel sector this April. Your homebody instincts give way to the lure of travel and adventure in 2011. Fall and winter bring the return of dreamy Neptune to your sector of transformation for one last jaunt between August and 2012. 

 A series of breakthroughs in consciousness happen for you in 2011. Slowing down those genius synapses may not be an option, but with so much mental exuberance, why would you want it to stop? Imagine the onslaught of six planets all occupying the mental sector of your horoscope at the same time. And the fact that the planets will be in Aries -- one of the feistiest, go-getter signs of them all -- only adds fuel to the fire. A sense of urgency dominates the scene. You won't put off tomorrow what you can do today. Could the planets possibly be any more conducive to productivity?
Of course sleep could be an issue in that case, but you'll have so much energy you won't even notice the deprivation. If you're a writer, this is by far your most prolific year. Words easily just spill right onto the page. Regardless of your chosen profession, you'll have your hands full with communication and correspondence. You're learning all about the power and pleasures of the mind with daily life becoming a thrilling education itself.
Another keynote of 2011 is a radically spiritualized approach to money and possessions. Don't be surprised if you're suddenly inspired to give it all away just to tap into the lightness of being. Any residual materialistic tendencies seem to lose their importance once Neptune takes up residence in your money sector this year. You'll be inundated by Neptune's compassionate and empathic teachings over the next 14 years. You'll feel more for those who have not and may even devote more of your time and energy to helping those in need.

Better Life

We ain't got much now, We're just startin' out
But I know somehow paradise is comin'

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life
Oh now there's a place for you and me
Where we can dream as big as the sky
I know it's hard to see it now
But baby someday we're gonna fly
This road we're on, you know it might be long
But my faith is strong
It's all that really matters

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life
So hold on, hold on
C'mon baby, hold on
Yeah, we're gonna have it all
And ooh

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life

Sunday, December 26, 2010

5 Low Lights of 2010

1.  I was admitted to the Psyche Ward 
2.  I lost my job
3.  I moved into a travel trailer in my parents yard
4.  My 4 Runner was re-possessed
5.  I am the heaviest I have ever been
I am so ready for this year to be over and for 2011 be the total opposite of 2010! 

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Are you talking to me?

Commercial After Commercial all you hear is ........... 
Hydroxycut - I lost 25lbs I lost 17lbs I lost 32lbs in only 6 weeks.  Jenny Craig - I lost 4 paint sizes in 4 weeks! BLAH! BLAH! BLAH! 
           Saturday while I was at the mall a random lady came up to me and said " O, you look so cute! When are you do?" I was shocked but was able to come up with an answer. I said  "April"  I felt so horrible because GUESS WHAT I'M NOT PREGNANT! 
           I mean I know I'm fat but Geez the nerve of some people! I know I need to lose weight but I just can't seem to get motivated but, what's it gonna take for me to get off my ASS!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Depression Hurts!

When someone in the family is depressed, the whole family is affected. Depression is a silent disease that sucks the energy and joy out of a person's life. If is very difficult for one has not experienced depression to understand its significance. Depending on the type and degree of depression the individual may have to live with their illness their entire life. Depression must be accepted as an illness and not a lousy character trait. 

What are the signs and symptoms of depression?
Symptoms include:
  • Persistent sad, anxious or "empty" feelings
  • Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
  • Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and/or helplessness
  • Irritability, restlessness
  • Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
  • Fatigue and decreased energy
  • Difficulty concentrating, remembering details and making decisions
  • Insomnia, early–morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
  • Overeating, or appetite loss
  • Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
  • Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

The Repo Man

Well,  Monday morning 12-6-10 @ 6am Michael and I woke up to beating on our trailer door! My heart stopped I began to think the worst! I heard my dad telling Michael that someone was here to pick up the 4Runner ...... FUCK! That's all I could think! We had made the payments and were caught up so, I had know idea that this was even going to happen! So, us being the nice people that we are didn't give the repo man any problems and just let him take my baby!  So, then I called my bank that my loan is through and they said the reason it was towed was because I owed $75 in late fees are you freaking kidding me! So, It wound up costing us $1140 to get my car back! BULLSHIT!  When are things going to get better?

Friday, December 3, 2010

If only the answer was yes!

     I am 29! I have been married for 6 years! I have a 2 year old son! I live in a travel trailer in my parents front yard! I don't have a job! We have NO money! We owe A LOT of money! I am sad! I feel worthless! I am not the Lynsey I used to be! What would make me happy? I don't know is the answer. Nothing makes me happy!  I will have little glimpses of happiness when Brody does something sweet or cute but they fade quickly! For the most part I am just sad. I have felt this ache in my heart for so long I don't even remember being happy! 
     I feel like I am locked in a room and the walls are closing in! I am suffocating and I am broken into a million pieces!  My heart is heavy and it aches constantly!  I feel empty and without meaning. If I didn't exist nothing in the world would change. It would be the same with or without me! 
     Can I runaway and start over again? Can I be anyone else but me? Can I go back in time and change my life? If only the answer was yes!