I feel like this is not how my life is supposed to be! I am overcome with thoughts ... random thoughts ... thoughts that consume me .... thoughts that confuse me .... thoughts that convince me that this life I am living is not real! And then Snap I wake up and realize that this is my life and this life I am living is what it is! I often think if I could go back in time .. I would do this or I would do that but we are not given that option. I know I can still make a change in my life for the better but I am terrified that I will be making the wrong decision.
I am scared to make a decision because what if I make the wrong one then how much more will we have to suffer. I am at a standstill while the world keeps spinning faster and faster!