I don't think I'm in Kansas anymore.

I am currently in a living situation that sucks and my home that I had with my husband was my "Kansas" and I am very far away from there.  How would you describe the place I live?  Well, for starters there are 7 people living in 1 house and it's not very big! I have explained in a previous blog why I am here so, I won't get into that but, I am here with Michael and Brody. My family as our own issues that we have to deal with not to mention the other peoples problems in this house so, you can imagine how stressful it is! I live with my Mom, Dad and Grandma who have lived together for like 17 years so, they have there own way of living and routines and then there is my Aunt who as her own way of doing things so, bringing all those people together will cause problems. I also believe that 4 out of 7 people in this house are legally crazy. We live in fear of someone setting someone off and then everything turns into WWIII. This is not any place to live if you are a sane person but it is surely not a good place if you are crazy!

F Bombs

Everyone has a vice or two and one of mine happens to be cursing.  This is something I try to be conscious of and stop but I drop F bombs left and right not mention all the other words out there. My husband also has this vice so the two of us together don't help each other so, my goal for 2011 is to stop cursing and especially dropping those F BOMBS!

Decisions! Decisions!

" You make decisions and they turn around and make you." Unknown

Life is filled with us having to make decision after decision. Sometimes I feel like it is one big guessing game. Do you want what is behind door #1 or door #2 you can't see what is behind those doors but you are forced to make a decision.   So, what happens if you pick the wrong door? Well, you end up having to pay the consequences or you don't get the bigger prize.  That sucks because we all  want to make the right decision but you don't know if its right until you have already chosen!  It doesn't matter what point you are in your life it is all based on decisions. The decision you make today could have a major affect on the rest of your life. So, don't dwell on the small decisions but do take some time on major decisions and think how could this affect the rest of my life because every decision you make does have an affect on you or maybe even someone else! So, lets think!

Am I a bad parent? I don't think so!

What classifies some as being a good parent? I can think of numerous things that make you a bad parent and none of which I do but, I have in fact been called or suggested on several occasions that I was a bad parent,  If you are a parent and this has ever happened to you you know how bad it hurts.  It is one of the worst things you can say to someone.  It feels like you are being stabbed in the heart.  My son is 2 and he is not malnourished, neglected, beaten or abused in any other way. He constantly loves on me as I do him. I think Brody thinks that I am a pretty awesome mom. My parenting style may be not be the same parenting style you have but who are you to say that mine is wrong?  How you want to raise your children is your own business and how I want to raise mine is my business.  I am not perfect nor are you and I will probably make a few mistakes as will you but that is life! We live and learn! For those of you who think that I am still not a good parent I sure haven't seen you win a parent of the year award! 

I love this girl!

I have known Jennie for almost 9 years wow, that is a long time and from the beginning I knew that she was a wonderful person. I kind of felt like her big sister and I was very protective of her and wanted only the best things for her. We didn't stay in close contact after the speedy's days but I always kept her in my prayers and thought of her often!  She is just one of those people that your are lucky to know! Here recently our friendship has turned into a great friendship and she makes me happy when I am down and I am grateful for her! I don't know what I would do if I didn't have me some Jennie in my life! I still want the best things for her and would do anything for her and I know that the feelings are mutual she is wonderful friend and so on her 25th birthday I wanted to honor her by saying that I am blessed to be Jennie's friend!

Year 2011 Overview

Cancer

Just when you thought that life couldn't possibly throw any more twists or turns along life's once tedious path, along comes the unpredictable but exhilarating energy of 2011 (operative word being 'exhilarating'). Partnerships continue to confront you with your deepest needs and fears but your career shows incredible promise and renewal. You receive the lucky touch of Jupiter from January to June. Expect major expansion and recognition on all fronts.

Promotions, opportunities to expand your social world and work-related travel are all potential gifts when the wheel of fortune spins in your favor for the first half of the year. The second half of 2011 brings a spectacular slew of new friends, alliances and networking opportunities when Jupiter moves into your house of dreams, goals and community. Venus showers you with extra doses of love and cash for the month of July, just in time for your birthday. And Mars brings the action, energy and work in August and early September.

Get ready to jet set this spring and/or summer when the planet of glamour enters your long-distance travel sector this April. Your homebody instincts give way to the lure of travel and adventure in 2011. Fall and winter bring the return of dreamy Neptune to your sector of transformation for one last jaunt between August and 2012. 

Aquarius

 A series of breakthroughs in consciousness happen for you in 2011. Slowing down those genius synapses may not be an option, but with so much mental exuberance, why would you want it to stop? Imagine the onslaught of six planets all occupying the mental sector of your horoscope at the same time. And the fact that the planets will be in Aries -- one of the feistiest, go-getter signs of them all -- only adds fuel to the fire. A sense of urgency dominates the scene. You won't put off tomorrow what you can do today. Could the planets possibly be any more conducive to productivity?

Of course sleep could be an issue in that case, but you'll have so much energy you won't even notice the deprivation. If you're a writer, this is by far your most prolific year. Words easily just spill right onto the page. Regardless of your chosen profession, you'll have your hands full with communication and correspondence. You're learning all about the power and pleasures of the mind with daily life becoming a thrilling education itself.

Another keynote of 2011 is a radically spiritualized approach to money and possessions. Don't be surprised if you're suddenly inspired to give it all away just to tap into the lightness of being. Any residual materialistic tendencies seem to lose their importance once Neptune takes up residence in your money sector this year. You'll be inundated by Neptune's compassionate and empathic teachings over the next 14 years. You'll feel more for those who have not and may even devote more of your time and energy to helping those in need.

Better Life

We ain't got much now, We're just startin' out
But I know somehow paradise is comin'

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life

Oh now there's a place for you and me
Where we can dream as big as the sky
I know it's hard to see it now
But baby someday we're gonna fly
This road we're on, you know it might be long
But my faith is strong
It's all that really matters

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life

So hold on, hold on
C'mon baby, hold on

Yeah, we're gonna have it all
And ooh

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life